Murky Tank
I don’t know why I thought about that title for this posting, really. I just would like to think of my brain (my think tank) to be a bit murky sometimes, daunted by old, happy memories and thoughts of what could have been IF.
I found myself thinking of my past and the one who got away (well, taken away from me is more like it!). I happen to watch "Just Friends" with Andrea the other day and I cannot forget that part where Ryan Reynolds said something about him being okay if they stay as FRIENDS, even if he doesn’t become her boyfriend, because he can’t stand the thought of her not being in her life. He didn’t have the courage to tell her how much he loved her. He wasn’t sure if she’ll feel the same way.
Sigh.
There was a time when he told me that.
Really, I can’t help but think of him these days especially that we don’t get to see much of each other anymore. Living our own lives, I guess. I’ll try to live with that too — maybe it’s really time to clean my little think tank and pick up the pieces my little broken heart and finally move on. It’s long overdue.
Or move away.
And work my ass off.
Maybe.
