Archive for June, 2005

We never forget.

"I’ve always felt like I’m a freak. Because I was never able to move on like this. People just having an affiar or an entire relationship, they break up and then they forget. They move on like they’re changing a brand of cereal.

I feel like I was never able to forget anyone that I’ve been with because each person has his own specific quality. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost.

Each relationship, when it ends, it really damages me. I never really fully recover. That’s why I’m very careful of getting really involved because it hurts too much.

I’ll miss the person from daily things. I get obsessed with little things. Maybe I’m crazy. It’s the same with people. I see specific details and each of them move one that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of beautiful specific details. "

-"Before Sunset"

I feel like it’s talking about how I am. It happens– when you love someone and let them into your life (it does not matter if this person is a friend or someone you had a special relationship with), it always is hard to get over that. You only learn how to deal with that reality:

…despite the fact that you continue to feel what you feel about them

… or remember the details of how you were together

… or what you talked about before

…. or how much you enjoyed each other’s company

So you continue to keep them in your memory, no matter how ugly it is. We continue to love, we continue to live what was.

They say that "Memories is a wonderful thing if you don’t have to deal with the past. Memories will never finish as long as you’re alive" and it’s so true.

Memories, wether good or bad, sad or happy, they continue to mold you into what you are. It continues to be your baseline on how you move on with your life. No matter how you look at it, or no matter how you react to it, in the end, you’ll realize that you continue to have the same feeling about it.

Awwwww